You're revealing too much!

"There should never be equality between men and women" - M

Kalau dia tahu cerita aku semalam, sure dia geleng kepala. Dia bukan jenis pemarah, tu yang bestnya. Aku selalu gak marah kat dia, mostly bila janji jumpa time ni, pastu dia tak ada. Kengkadang, aku pun buat hal jugak dengan dia, lambat datang la, buat dia miss appointment la. Tapi dia cool. Tak marah. Abis tinggi pun dia mintak drop-off kat memana tempat yang dia boleh ambik public transport untuk sampai ke tempat appointment dia.

Pernah sekali tu aku hantar dia gi stesen bas, dia terpaksa keluar kereta, bawak beg yang berat entah berapa, lari kejar bas. Betul tu, LARI KEJAR bas. Nasib baik area tu pun memang sesak jadi bas baru gerak tak berapa jauh. Itu pun dia tak marah. Siap boleh buat lawak gelak lagi. Aku lak yang jadi cuak.

Aku borak dengan dia baru-baru ni.. "Baru aku tau yang tak semua yang mak aku tau pasal kerja-kerja bapak aku," dan ".. aku macam bapak aku siot!" Itulah antara ayat-ayat yang keluar daripada mulut dia. Heh, sama je nampak.

Tapi mungkin salah aku ataupun mungkin tak betul meskipun tak salah, tapi aku suka nak cerita "bogel habis" bak kata M. Interpretasinya, cerita tak ada selindung-selindung atau dalam kata lain, transparent. Aku suka bagi equal status ataupun mungkin cuma illusion of an equal status. Aku bukan tak boleh tanggung beban tapi aku rasa apa yang hak perlu sampai kepada yang berhak.

Tapi M tok guru aku. Or at least that's what my friends say. It's an inside joke, don't worry if you don't understand :) Takkan student nak lawan tok guru, kan? Takpelah, take it as an alternative thinking.

"You're revealing too much," said my dinner mate last night. It wasn't of the obscene nature but she was apprehensive about the honest declaration of my behaviour. My take, it's fact. No matter how honest, sincere and loyal a man is, there would be times when he looks at other women and think, "Oh, she's so beautiful," or "Wow!" Just as a woman would to other men. That doesn't tantamount to cheating, at least not in my books.

At the end of the day, the man would still love his wife, longing and wanting to grow old together. That reminds me of an Adam Sandler song "Growing Old With You" from The Wedding Singer.

At least that's how I feel about it :)

To' Guru M, jangan marah ya? :P

I Wanna Grow Old With You ( - Adam Sandler

Happy as I am, I worry too..

Every now and then you'll come across a moment in time (or a period) when you just don't want time to end so you may continue doing what you were and experience what you have, be in the company of those you enjoy being in and have little worry of what else is to come.

Every now and then I'd be thinking on what is life after now when we are promised eternity and life without limit.

And I shudder.

I just felt that it's too much for my comprehension and too worrisome to ponder.

And I'm afraid I'd go insane from thinking about it. My mind just fails to compute the concept of infinity.

But I had a moment today that I wished would last. It was pleasant, it was nice and most of all, it was bliss.

Today was

Saturday, 24 January 2009. It was my off-day. It was supposed to be my laze-in day too but being itchy, I didn't laze. In fact, I could've arrive at the office on time if I wanted but since I decided not to (and was actually asked not to), I didn't. Along with my usual accomplice, I went out to see what colour the town was painted in.

Well, to my surprise, the town was quite quiet. Quiet by my definitions would mean that it's nothing like what it's supposed to be come public holiday. I guess it's attributed to the fact that it's a VERY VERY long holiday and to people in the Federal Territory and working 5-day week, all they needed to do was to take another 3 days holiday and they'll have 10 straight days of not working.

It doesn't mean much if you don't already have plans but it means a lot to me if it was Hari Raya though.

We started the day off by sending Naz off to KLCC - the poor guy had to work today to replace the whatever holidays that the company have decided to 'grant' him. Moved to Damansara for breakfast before proceeding to Taman Bahagia (the GPS actually has Taman Bahagia in it, although it was quite a fuss finding the right combination of search keywords to get the desired output). Handled some business there then went to The Curve..

The Curve was EMPTY! Well yes, that was exaggerating but it wasn't full as expected. The street was accesible, tables weren't filled, restaurants were almost empty and it was 2pm. Went round and round and visited a few shops. Bought me a shoe rack to what else, store shoes! It's a 3-tier rack from Ikea so they're modular units. Initially wondered how to fit it in the car but yes, Ikea's thought of all that waaaaay before we had to come to the problem. Opened the plastic wrapping and converted the package into 2+1 tier and they fit in the boot just nice.

Went to Plaza Berjaya (but didn't even go up to the office) for a drink and went to Low Yatt to get some stuff for the office and for home. For home is this nice and quiet keyboard, a timely replacement considering some keys on the old one are not working anymore. Contemplated between an RM18 piece and an RM25 piece but succumbed to the branding and bought Logitech's keyboard. Made some off-hand calculations so the purchase would amount to RM200 so I can claim 2 points for the purchase and the bill actually came to RM201.10.

Met Mali, went for drinks, had a long chat then parted ways before going to BTS. Round and round and then went to Brickfields to drop off a package for Abdul before heading back to Wangsa Maju, fetched Naz then went for dinner at Aeon Mall, AU2. Makan-makan, met my father's friend whose name I don't remember but who remembers my face and smiled at me which I later saw having drinks with family at OTWC and I then went to meet him and have a courtesy conversation.

It's a small world, lah.

Left Aeon Mall, stopped by the apartment before going out again to Waizuri. It's a football night tonight and since I know which team's playing, I know what to expect when I get home. So decided to while the night a bit at NZ, had drinks and a lot of chicken wings before returning. Arrived home at half past 1, 'assembled' the modular shoe rack, placed 2 pairs of shoes and 1 pair of slippers in it and went up.

Yes, the stadium was already set up.

Rushed to the computer to (excitedly) replace the keyboard before opening facebook to make my Scrabble moves. I'm having quite some luck at the moment and leading most of the games. I've been in this condition before and I know it would be disasterous if I slacken.

That's about all for today, which was Saturday, 24 January 2009.

Tomorrow's replacement dinner sounds like it'll be very good. The prelude was juicy, I just can't wait! :)

Nite-nite.

After the Course

I have just completed my training yesterday. It's called ******* Selling Platform. The training should have prepared me for a job as a front desk at a travel agency making bookings and what nots. I will know if I have done well when I receive my certificate later on, as it will reflect the results of my exercise. Kalau buat betul, dapat distinction. Kalau buat tak betul, dapat completion je la.

That's the least of my worries for now.

Called up the guy who sold us the platform who contacted the technical support who promptly installed the platform on our computer via remote access. I've been with computers for a long time and have seen remote access at work way back in the late 1990s but am still amazed at how it works.

Been having job-related activities daily and am liking it.

I don't like to like things. Especially when it comes to work. The moment I start liking some work that I do, I'd do it even better than I have before. As soon as I start feeling nice, something else will come and uproot me somewhere else. Then, I'd feel shitty again and have to adjust.

I'm not saying that I don't welcome change or changes but I do wish to have a comfort working zone without distractions.

Being busy is good. Makes me feel I'm worth every penny. Even if that's what I'm paid with.

Words are mighty powerful. Sharp and edged.

My apologies.